I'm writing this because I want to share a very surreal and confusing episode in my life. Some names and details have been changed in order to protect those involved.
Let me start off by giving a little background on Nazism and LGBTs:
Between 1933 and 1945, an estimated 100,000 men were arrested as homosexuals, of whom some 50,000 were officially sentenced. Most of these men served time in regular prisons, and an estimated 5,000 to 15,000 of those sentenced were incarcerated in Nazi concentration camps. It is unclear how many of the 5,000 to 15,000 eventually perished in the camps.
In the camps they were treated with unusual cruelty. They were given no quarter. Even other inmates showed no sympathy. Being beaten to death by other inmates was just as common as being beaten to death by the guards.
But the actual Nazi policy on homosexuality was ambiguous at best. Ernst Rรถhm, one of the founding members of the Nazi party, was homosexual. He co-founded the paramilitary group the Sturmabteilung (SA) and rumors circulated around that gay sex was not uncommon in the SA. Authors Scott Lively and Kevin Abrams contend in their book, The Pink Swastika, that only effeminate homosexuals were targeted and masculine homosexuals were generally left alone. Let it be said that I do not agree with Lively and Abrams and I think The Pink Swastika lacks any merit and is nothing more than pseudo-history.
Now that's done, it's time to start...
It started with a message on a dating site by a guy named Robert. Robert was late 40's, skinhead, and a harley rider. I would call him a "quasi Nazi." His beliefs didn't amount to a true National Socialist (NS) but he had huge sympathies for the Nazi cause.
After talking for a couple weeks, he asked me if I wanted to join an invite only group that was specifically for homosexual National Socialists. I've never subscribed to any NS views, Most of my views are completely contrary to NS views to be honest. For example: I'm a big Zionist. But I was 20 and like a normal 20 year old, I wanted to explore and experience all I can. I said yes.
Like I was saying, it's invite only so it's a sacred nest. It was most definitely a surreal experience. Within a few days of joining, I got a message from a gentleman by the name of Isaac.
Isaac was in his early 50's, born in London, and a leather maniac. But unlike Robert, Isaac was a full blown NS.
In our first conversation we talked for over three hours. I honestly don't know why, or how, we connected so much. This was the pivotal moment.
I could tell right away that he was completely infatuated with me, and I was starting to feel the same way about him. He treated me with such respect. My ex's never really respected me so that was a new feeling. He gave me an almost fatherly love. He always let it be known that he was there for me, and no one else.
He would use terms like, "I fancy you like a madman," and that just made me smile instantly. His tone was endearing, he was a complete gentleman.
I remember one conversation, he told me he'd kill for me..... And.... I was so flattered. Knowing him as well as I did, he meant it. He would not have hesitated to kill. That made me love him so much and hate him so much.
I know a lot of people will think, "Oh he was just saying what you wanted to hear." Just.... No. There were several instances (Not going to say specifics) where he demonstrated that his love was genuine.
But then there are the things I really don't like talking about. And by that I mean some of the things that we talked about. We never physically did anything. If I ever thought someone was in danger, I would have called authorities ASAP. I would rather die than hurt anyone. While he could be one of the nicest people to talk to, he could be, unsurprisingly, quite sadistic. He had a particularly strong hatred for "fags." Even though that hatred is ubiquitous in that subculture, his hatred was immense. (Just for clarity, in the gay NS culture "fag" means any effeminate, twink-like, and weak gay male.)
You can't imagine the internal struggle that ensued in me. But there was one imagine I created in my head that really effected me. You know at the end of Titanic, the young Rose is walking up the staircase and all around her are the people that died. I just imagined walking into a camp and all the victims of Nazi anti-LGBT laws. How could I tell all their souls that I'm a gay man and I'm dating a Nazi? I'm just like anyone of them, yet I'm dating the by proxy perpetrator.
What else contributed to the end of our relationship? The constant hatred he had really started to affect me. But as soon as he'd hold me as I drift off to sleep, I fell in love, all over again. Was I drunk on love? Oh yeah. You know, I could try to blame it on the fact I didn't have a father and he filled that void I had since childhood but in the end, it was just because he loved me unconditionally and he showed that. No lover has shown that level of respect towards me nor has any lover before or since loved me as much as Isaac did.
Tuesday, August 2, 2016
Tuesday, May 17, 2016
Just Some of My Favorite memes
*I do not take credit for creating any of these and I am not trying to profit off their work.
My Favorite Copypastas
Just some of my personal favorites: (PS, Sorry the font colors are hard to read.)
This offends me as a vegan transgender atheist who vapes and crossfits 4 times a week and I'm also a male feminist as I identify myself as a Rastafarian Apache helicopter dog mega multi combo god of hyper death and if you don't agree with me you're an ignorant arrogant globaphobic sexist lesbian.
This offends me as a vegan transgender atheist who vapes and crossfits 4 times a week and I'm also a male feminist as I identify myself as a Rastafarian Apache helicopter dog mega multi combo god of hyper death and if you don't agree with me you're an ignorant arrogant globaphobic sexist lesbian.
Monday, February 8, 2016
Slice and Dice- The Circumcision Debate. The Dark Side NO ONE Knows
Circumcision has long been a tradition in many societies and religions. The origins of the practice are unknown. It probably has evolved independently several times in human history, with no one society being the cultural source.
I was personally circumcised when I was 11. I had severe bladder damage from being paralyzed and it was done to help reduce UTIs. It did. But I soon completely recovered my bladder function but at the time, no one knew for sure.
The Dark Side to me isn't that I was circumcised, I am proud I was cut, and circumcision helps protect against HIV (which I will go into detail later). But the dark side started when I met a friend on facebook. We are going to call this friend Preston Dennis (that was the first name I got on a random name generator). Preston is uncut.
Preston has just be on a crusade about how disgusting circumcision is. But he is so hateful. All his propaganda is just thinly veiled elitism. All he would say is how we are ruining men's lives, and cut men are victims of the pro-mutilating lobby. He always says a man's life is destroyed when they're cut. And he says they can never feel pleasure of sex. Of course he does not know how it feels. He doesn't know how circumcision affects a man's life, or more precisely, how it does not.
He always goes on about how uncut guys are so much more happier, and full, and feel better. So he isn't advocating anything except how being uncut is just better.
And if you're cut and are proud of being cut, he HATES that. He will try and force you to think like a victim. Like coerce you into falling in with his view. He coerced me into feeling robbed of my foreskin at a point when I was already suicidal for other reasons.
The more is NEVER FORCE A VICTIM TO MAKE AN ELITIST POINT.
I was personally circumcised when I was 11. I had severe bladder damage from being paralyzed and it was done to help reduce UTIs. It did. But I soon completely recovered my bladder function but at the time, no one knew for sure.
The Dark Side to me isn't that I was circumcised, I am proud I was cut, and circumcision helps protect against HIV (which I will go into detail later). But the dark side started when I met a friend on facebook. We are going to call this friend Preston Dennis (that was the first name I got on a random name generator). Preston is uncut.
Preston has just be on a crusade about how disgusting circumcision is. But he is so hateful. All his propaganda is just thinly veiled elitism. All he would say is how we are ruining men's lives, and cut men are victims of the pro-mutilating lobby. He always says a man's life is destroyed when they're cut. And he says they can never feel pleasure of sex. Of course he does not know how it feels. He doesn't know how circumcision affects a man's life, or more precisely, how it does not.
He always goes on about how uncut guys are so much more happier, and full, and feel better. So he isn't advocating anything except how being uncut is just better.
And if you're cut and are proud of being cut, he HATES that. He will try and force you to think like a victim. Like coerce you into falling in with his view. He coerced me into feeling robbed of my foreskin at a point when I was already suicidal for other reasons.
The more is NEVER FORCE A VICTIM TO MAKE AN ELITIST POINT.
Iatrogenic Pain....
I had an epidural steroid injection. Just because I do not want to have to explain it all, I'll paraphrase from the signed report that went along with the procedure:
"The patient was placed prone on the CT table and localizing transaxial images were performed.
After choosing the appropriate level for access, the lumbar region was prepped and draped in
standard sterile fashion. The skin and subcutaneous tissues along the anticipated needle tract
were anesthetized with 1% lidocaine. A 25-gauge 3.5 inch spinal needle was then advanced under
CT guidance until the tip of the needle was within the right T11-T12 neuroforamen.
Approximately 1 mL of Omnipaque-300 mixed with 0.5 mL of 0.5% Marcaine were injected into the
epidural space. Confirmation of appropriate distribution of the injected materials was made
with additional imaging. Then, 80 mg of Depo-Medrol mixed with 0.5 mL of 0.5% Marcaine was
injected into the epidural space. The needle was removed. The patient tolerated the procedure
without evidence for immediate post procedural complication."
I know they did some nerve damage and it's so frustrating to have iatrogenic pain along with my chronic pain! I had to go to the ER on Feb 1st because the pain was so severe right at the injection site. They got an IV started with hydromorphone ( Dilaudid). I was set to have an MRI to see if there was any damage. MRIs are extremely painful for me because my back can't handle lying there. So they also gave me fentanyl. I was able to complete the 3.5 hour MRI relatively pain free. They didn't find any gross damage. But between the time I got accepted to the ER at 5pm and when I was discharged, I had 5 vials of hydromorphone (Dilaudid) and 5~6 vials of fentanyl. The pain is still increased so I'm setting up meetings to see which medicines I can go on until it heals.
"The patient was placed prone on the CT table and localizing transaxial images were performed.
After choosing the appropriate level for access, the lumbar region was prepped and draped in
standard sterile fashion. The skin and subcutaneous tissues along the anticipated needle tract
were anesthetized with 1% lidocaine. A 25-gauge 3.5 inch spinal needle was then advanced under
CT guidance until the tip of the needle was within the right T11-T12 neuroforamen.
Approximately 1 mL of Omnipaque-300 mixed with 0.5 mL of 0.5% Marcaine were injected into the
epidural space. Confirmation of appropriate distribution of the injected materials was made
with additional imaging. Then, 80 mg of Depo-Medrol mixed with 0.5 mL of 0.5% Marcaine was
injected into the epidural space. The needle was removed. The patient tolerated the procedure
without evidence for immediate post procedural complication."
I know they did some nerve damage and it's so frustrating to have iatrogenic pain along with my chronic pain! I had to go to the ER on Feb 1st because the pain was so severe right at the injection site. They got an IV started with hydromorphone ( Dilaudid). I was set to have an MRI to see if there was any damage. MRIs are extremely painful for me because my back can't handle lying there. So they also gave me fentanyl. I was able to complete the 3.5 hour MRI relatively pain free. They didn't find any gross damage. But between the time I got accepted to the ER at 5pm and when I was discharged, I had 5 vials of hydromorphone (Dilaudid) and 5~6 vials of fentanyl. The pain is still increased so I'm setting up meetings to see which medicines I can go on until it heals.
Updating the Records
I'm going back through past posts and revamping them. Making them more professional. So stick around or check back soon.
From Russia with Memes Part 2
Fish can't survive long out of water; Russians can't survive long off a carpet.
I- I don't have the psychological skills needed to comment here.
"Parret Preacher?" Sounds like a new show on TLC... You know that'd be some TLC bullshit. But I do want to see that parret walk into his birdhouse like Sherman Hemsley walks into church in "Amen"
Teaching a crayfish how to "be rachet."
Who saw "The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo" (2011). Directed by David Fincher? This looks like the opening where they have those monochromic humans. And Karen Oh's Voice...
"For peace and trust can win the day despite of all your losing."
Little Vladimir is playing with pop pop's gun again. Little punk ass.
I have to buy bread in Moscow next time knowing this disgusting man might have laid on it.
Ho ho ho! Santa Stalin! "Some of the youths have asked for enough food to eat.... No..... Less for Ukraine....."
"No........... No.. I clean bomb now, Mista Khrushchev"
Oh.... well.... Larisa's dead where the drinks!
"What gun would Jesus choose?"
Well he would use a FN P90
Whoa... Just imagine Putin completing the trifecta...
Alright, I am only commenting on the old perv's hair. It's a hairstyle that is a buzz cut with the bangs still on.....
Mon Mothma?
Fuckin' photo bombing heffers!! We want to see the cow!!
"Da?"......
"Nyet......"
More of a little treat. Riding a bear and sporting a cunt cap...
Sunday, February 7, 2016
From Russia with Memes Part 1
This is the cover for my new coffee table book called "Estrus: A Russia //in// Love."
Look how sultry that bitch is!
We know that's Sergey Golovkin
The one on the left is really into it.
It's Bat Russian!!! He's come to save the day.....! or to just drink it away.
That's Russian Spiderman
"Alright class! If it become threat, we put broom through wheelchair kid's wheels."
He died in the Great Patriotic War (WWII) so you could have the illusion of free choice..... and so you could bring booty back.
What kind of bakery is this?! Andrei Chikatilo's bakery???
The Russian Human Centipede (Soviet Centipede) didn't do as well.
So much Russian in the air, it has started to condense on the walls.
Part 2 coming soon...
Phlebitis or cellulitis? Updated
I had a standard IV line. In for about 8 hours. Just opiates and contrast. The next couple days I developed this bruise. It's painless and healing at a steading rate. But I took a lot of aspirin the day *after* I had the IV. Can aspirin retroactively increase bleeding? Yes... Yes it does.
This is the start of it at around 2 days after the IV
This is 7 days after the IV. Slightly tender if rubbed
Here it is on the same day (7 days) but this shows the petechia.
I think it might be related to the MRI contrast agent I received. Possible allergic to it.
This is the start of it at around 2 days after the IV
This is 7 days after the IV. Slightly tender if rubbed
Here it is on the same day (7 days) but this shows the petechia.I think it might be related to the MRI contrast agent I received. Possible allergic to it.
Broken Record
I started having hallucination and I would sit in my room and I would hear, verbatim past arguments that have been had. Not always involving me, just arguments in the living room in general. I know it's fake but it's like a record. Each individual's voices is perfectly perseved. I can keep track, like "oh it was that fight yesterday so today will be the (X) fight," These were/are literally recordings, that somehow, for some reason, are being played now.
Monday, November 30, 2015
Rosetta Molted
Here is Rosetta's last season dress. She told me to throw it away. "Look at how fucking disgusting that dress it! Get it out, throw it away!" Rosetta doesn't sound like that IRL. She sounds like Condoleeza Rice. She does.
Meme Monday
Memes are easy, memes are fun. Memes area also funny if one can make them right. Not my pictures but my texts:
MJK or Go A Way.. fuck that's a good one too!
Yeah... I don't
"Unfortunately we are closed for 90 days and/or until the carpets are replaced, furniture bleach and when a missing persons report-"
Whoa synesthesia, calm down man!
Who else has synesthesia? Don't worry I got my diagram.
Meaning - the production of a sense impression relating to one sense or part of the body by stimulation of another sense or part of the body.
Paraphrasing GLaDOS, speaking of her I need to finish that fanfic of her and Captain Ballarms. Ballarms was so loud, that's what brought the Combine here.
Anyway, Sound goes in, color comes out. Example If C=Yellow U=Blue N=Brown.... and so forth.
Mine is acting up bad now. Maybe a migraine is messing with it, and the lack of sleep and stress; all of it combined I bet but get this: I went to turn on my fan, just a desk fan, I started hearing Wolfenstein The New Order - House of the Rising Sun (Wรญlbert Eckart und seine Volksmusรญk Stars)
I thought I was hearing damaged but then the lyrics started, on cue. More fun about audio hallucinations soon friends.
Paraphrasing GLaDOS, speaking of her I need to finish that fanfic of her and Captain Ballarms. Ballarms was so loud, that's what brought the Combine here.
Anyway, Sound goes in, color comes out. Example If C=Yellow U=Blue N=Brown.... and so forth.
Mine is acting up bad now. Maybe a migraine is messing with it, and the lack of sleep and stress; all of it combined I bet but get this: I went to turn on my fan, just a desk fan, I started hearing Wolfenstein The New Order - House of the Rising Sun (Wรญlbert Eckart und seine Volksmusรญk Stars)
I thought I was hearing damaged but then the lyrics started, on cue. More fun about audio hallucinations soon friends.
Tuesday, November 24, 2015
"Lapin blanc"
Votre lapin blanc magique
A gauche, il est รฉcrit sur le mur
Nous suivons comme Alice
Et juste garder la plongรฉe dans le trou
Vous ne pouvez pas rรฉparer votre promesse brisรฉe
Nos liens ont Come Undone
Je ne serai pas l'habitude d'รชtre battues et maltraitรฉes
Il est la raison pour laquelle je choisis de couper mes pertes
Vos mensonges trompera personne
Votre lapin blanc magique
Votre salle blanche de veste droite
Votre lapin blanc magique
A gauche, il est รฉcrit sur le mur
Nous suivons comme Alice
Et juste garder la plongรฉe dans le trou
Nous tombons et nous perdons le contrรดle
Votre traction et nous nous entraรฎner dans cette impasse
Nous suivons comme Alice
Et juste garder la plongรฉe dans le trou
Vous ne pouvez pas offrir ร votre poison pour moi
Dans votre royaume de la saletรฉ
lapin blanc
Straight Jacket
Votre lapin blanc magique
A gauche, il est รฉcrit sur le mur
Nous suivons comme Alice
Et juste garder la plongรฉe dans le trou
Nous tombons et nous perdons le contrรดle
Votre traction et nous nous entraรฎner dans cette impasse
Nous suivons comme Alice
Et juste garder la plongรฉe dans le trou
Je ne serai pas poussรฉ de cรดtรฉ
Je serai entendu
Je vais obtenir ce que je veux
Qu'est-ce que je mรฉrite
Je ne serai pas poussรฉ de cรดtรฉ
Je serai entendu
Je vais obtenir ce que je veux
Qu'est-ce que je mรฉrite
Nous tombons et nous perdons le contrรดle
Votre traction et nous nous entraรฎner dans cette impasse
Votre lapin blanc magique
A gauche, il est รฉcrit sur le mur
Nous suivons comme Alice
Et juste garder la plongรฉe dans le trou
Nous tombons et nous perdons le contrรดle
Votre traction et nous nous entraรฎner dans cette impasse
Nous suivons comme Alice
Et juste garder la plongรฉe dans le trou
Votre lapin blanc magique
A gauche, il est รฉcrit sur le mur
Nous suivons comme Alice
A gauche, il est รฉcrit sur le mur
Nous suivons comme Alice
Et juste garder la plongรฉe dans le trou
Vous ne pouvez pas rรฉparer votre promesse brisรฉe
Nos liens ont Come Undone
Je ne serai pas l'habitude d'รชtre battues et maltraitรฉes
Il est la raison pour laquelle je choisis de couper mes pertes
Vos mensonges trompera personne
Votre lapin blanc magique
Votre salle blanche de veste droite
Votre lapin blanc magique
A gauche, il est รฉcrit sur le mur
Nous suivons comme Alice
Et juste garder la plongรฉe dans le trou
Nous tombons et nous perdons le contrรดle
Votre traction et nous nous entraรฎner dans cette impasse
Nous suivons comme Alice
Et juste garder la plongรฉe dans le trou
Vous ne pouvez pas offrir ร votre poison pour moi
Dans votre royaume de la saletรฉ
lapin blanc
Straight Jacket
Votre lapin blanc magique
A gauche, il est รฉcrit sur le mur
Nous suivons comme Alice
Et juste garder la plongรฉe dans le trou
Nous tombons et nous perdons le contrรดle
Votre traction et nous nous entraรฎner dans cette impasse
Nous suivons comme Alice
Et juste garder la plongรฉe dans le trou
Je ne serai pas poussรฉ de cรดtรฉ
Je serai entendu
Je vais obtenir ce que je veux
Qu'est-ce que je mรฉrite
Je ne serai pas poussรฉ de cรดtรฉ
Je serai entendu
Je vais obtenir ce que je veux
Qu'est-ce que je mรฉrite
Nous tombons et nous perdons le contrรดle
Votre traction et nous nous entraรฎner dans cette impasse
Votre lapin blanc magique
A gauche, il est รฉcrit sur le mur
Nous suivons comme Alice
Et juste garder la plongรฉe dans le trou
Nous tombons et nous perdons le contrรดle
Votre traction et nous nous entraรฎner dans cette impasse
Nous suivons comme Alice
Et juste garder la plongรฉe dans le trou
Votre lapin blanc magique
A gauche, il est รฉcrit sur le mur
Nous suivons comme Alice
Sunday, November 22, 2015
It's been too long... Nothing has changed,
The hells I've seen today. A part of me wants to plaster this video all over. To say look "We all know this is happening, but this is what it looks like!" Another part wants to bury what I saw, cast it away. The boycotts from the Sochi olympics, for LGBT rights, stopped trending. The flag overlays are switching back. And again, we leave time to fix the issue even though we can expedite it.
I keep a graphic picture or video on my desktop to remind me to keep supporting anti-ISIL or LGBT rights with donations. Is that healthy? I doubt it.
What makes a single protist come together and form an altruistic slime mold? What causes people to go from the natural selfish human to the equally natural altruistic human?
To think that changing you facebook overlay on your picture is all that you need to do, is wrong. I did it, but I'm following up my activism.
Same with the people who ranted about how pointless it was to change to the overlay, most of them did nothing to help either.
I keep a graphic picture or video on my desktop to remind me to keep supporting anti-ISIL or LGBT rights with donations. Is that healthy? I doubt it.
What makes a single protist come together and form an altruistic slime mold? What causes people to go from the natural selfish human to the equally natural altruistic human?
To think that changing you facebook overlay on your picture is all that you need to do, is wrong. I did it, but I'm following up my activism.
Same with the people who ranted about how pointless it was to change to the overlay, most of them did nothing to help either.
Wednesday, December 31, 2014
SCP-4x Draft.... Again.
[[module Rate]]
[[include component:image-block name=Lbgwwcf-1.jpg|caption=Victim of Biohazard Incident //Sverdlovsk.// [[footnote]]See //Preliminary NBC Incident Report Sverdlovsk,// named after the //1979 Sverdlovsk anthrax leak//[[/footnote]]]]
**Item #**: SCP-4x
**Object Class**: --Safe-- //Pending. -Alexandr █████, Operations Director, Site 204//
**Special Containment Procedures**:
When dealing with //Neurophyton anomalum// the use of a positive pressure personnel suit, with a segregated air supply is mandatory. The entrance and exit of the //N. anomalum// containment lab contains multiple showers, a vacuum room, and an ultraviolet light room to destroy all traces of biological hazard. Multiple airlocks are to be employed and are electronically secured to prevent both doors from opening at the same time. All air and water service going to and coming from the //N. anomalum// containment lab will undergo similar decontamination procedures to eliminate the possibility of subsequent accidental releases. See //Preliminary NBC Incident Report Sverdlovsk//.
Personnel assigned to //N. anomalum// must have specific training in handling extremely hazardous infectious agents. They are to be supervised by qualified personnel who are trained in mycology, epidemiology, and infectious disease. Access to the //N. anomalum// lab is to be controlled by Dr. Johann Stรธrlid in special cooperation with Generรกlporuฤรญk[[footnote]]Generรกlporuฤรญk is the Czech equivalate to Lieutenant General.[[/footnote]] Miklos.
**Description**:
//Neurophyton anomalum// is an anomalous parasitoid fungi that has both asexual and sexual forms. The sexual form of //N. anomalum// produces a white, "puffball" fruiting body. The fruiting body erupts from the mandible. The fruiting body has not yet appeared naturally and can only be initiated //in vitro.// The specific reasons for that are unknown.
The asexual form appears as a white mold around the oral cavity. The asexual form is more infectious than the sexual form. The only samples of N. anomalum at Site 863 are in asexual forms.
Gyromitrin, found in //N. anomalum//, is partly converted into the hydrazone monomethylhydrazine (MMH), within the body. MMH is useful as a rocket propellent. MMH is in stage III testing for use as a propellent. Also found in //N. anomalum//, is an antagonist of dystrophin, known as MG-125. MG-125 is a structural analog of the synthetic dystrophin antagonist, MG-132. MG-125's actions on dystrophin are likely the cause of the severe muscle spasms, and other myopathies, seen in some //N. anomalum// infections
Results of genetic testing shows the four (4) main nucleobases but also found purine paired with inosine.
The course of any infection with //N. anomalum// seems to be based on the genetics or the metabolism of the host. The reasons for that are unknown at this time. But all infections show the following: Spasms (strong enough to break bone), white mold around the mouth, the anterior cingulate cortex becomes partially necrotic, the substantia gelatinosa becomes erratic and begins to send signals to the substantia nigra, gross atrophy of the skeletal muscles, movement becomes twitchy, sharp, quick, with pauses, and massive amounts of histamine are released.
The lifecycle of //N. anomalum// is extremely complex. The lifecycle and infection course are related. //Dr. Wolf Lorenz//, //Dr. Johann Stรธrlid// and their respective teams are undertaking a project to map out the known life cycles.
Infection in a genetically healthy human is termed the //Kadera Cycle.//[[footnote]]It is named after mycologist, David Kadera.[[/footnote]]
__**Test Cycle 204863/Kadera Cycle- [REDACTED]**__
> **Subject:** D-8190 (Male, 25)
> **Procedure:** Spores of //N. anomalum// were delivered via intrathecal pump to minimize non-neurological affects.
> **Results:** Subject complained that his skin felt painfully cold. He said he had no urge to get away from it. This is the hallmark of the //N. anomalum// affect on the brain. He then began have muscle contractions that broke both femurs. These injuries were painful for approximately 30mins. Physical, chorea-like movements progressed as followed: Normal movement. The "twitchy, sharp, quick with pauses. Not enough strength to walk. Breathing was normal throughout. He began to self mutilate by pulling out his finger nails. He tried to pull his toe nails out but he was too weak. He preceded to molest his newly injured fingers. When asked why, the subject said, "I need to feel...... Something." The subject expired 4mins minutes later, as noted via remote heart monitoring.
> **Analysis:** Audio log from autopsy: //"One would think a parasite would want to keep its host alive. A parasitoid no doubt, ja? Ms Ursula Clarke's tests have shown that MG-125 inhibits dystrophin. All the dying muscles would send out salts, potassium, and chloride among other proconvulsants. Also damage to the brain would have fed into his unusual movements. It seems that the damage to the brain is goal driven. Decreasing pain and pleasure. Going into self mutilations. If we find spores in the blood left by the subject, I would conclude that the neurological changes are to help the N. anomalum fitness in the wild; to help spread it via blood. Clever kleiner Bastard..." -Dr. Wolf Lorenz.//
Infection in an individual with increased expression of PrPC will appear as severe atrophy of the thalamus. This cycle is termed //Nyx Cycle//.[[footnote]]Named after //Nyx//, the Greek goddess of the night.[[/footnote]] Sleep is unatainable after 3hrs. The subject will have increase paranoia, phobias, and complete insomnia. The one subject tested died after 6 months of complete sleeplessness.
An infection in a subject with low purine metabolism will result in a intense episode of psychosis, self mutilations, and delusions of grandeur. This cycle is know as the //9H-purine Cycle//.[[footnote]]Researchers are divided between if they were actually delusions or something related to the sapience of //N. anomalum// . Until evidence is found, they were delusions.[[/footnote]]
**Known cycles of //N. anomalum//:**
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[[>image Lifecycle_of_Pfiesteria.jpg size="medium"]]
A simplified diagram of the known cycles of //N. anomalum//. This report will not go into such detail.
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**Test Deus Ex:**
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> **Subject:** D-8204 **Affliction:** Psychopathy **Specific Symptoms:** [REDACTED].[[footnote]]Information will be released in 90 days or until all affected property has been thoroughly bleached and the carpets replaced.[[/footnote]]
> **Subject:** D-8482 **Affliction:** Peptic Ulcers **Specific Symptoms:** D-8482 began to projectile vomit. D-8482 would keep eye contact until she felt like she could hit another person with her vomitus. Analysis of the vomitus did show viable spores.
> **Subject:** D-8778 **Affliction:** Huntington's Disease, 40 CAG repeat **Specific Symptoms:** D-8778 showed a 2,000x increase of glutamine within the central nervous system. Spasms are more violent per usual infection. Autopsy of D-8778's brain was not possible due to severe excitotoxicity, very few neurons were still intact.
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**Intercepted email to Generรกlporuฤรญk Arpad Miklos from Alexandr █████, Operations Director, Site 204**
[[footnote]] Classified on the orders of ████ █████. This letter is to be taken as personal communication.[[/footnote]]
> //"My closest friend, Arpad, I have to redeem a favor. I was able to give you unprecedented access to Neurophyton anomalum, I now need directed research to see the weaponization potential of N. anomalum. Wise as you are, you may have realized that my people and I are on the brink of war. Let me be clear, N. anomalum is a last resort option. Ever since 9M-MRD was shot down, war is on the horizon. We are sliding back to a time where we were not viewed so great. To secure the future of the Foundation in Eastern Europe, we must glaze over a few rules and morals. I have the highest faith in you friend."
> Sasha//
**Proposal by Generรกlporuฤรญk Miklos to Alexandr █████, Operations Director, Site 204**
[[footnote]]This letter is to be taken as personal communication.[[/footnote]]
> //"Sasha! How is the life of 6,000 EUR suits? Nice, I'm sure.//
> //Let me start off by expressing my gratitude for allowing my PZU and I access to samples of N. anomalum for research on its weaponization potential. I will be sending our newest research on the idea of weaponization soon.[[footnote]]See //Operation Ophiocordyceps: Project Carpenter Ant//.[[/footnote]] But I do have a few concerns regarding containment.//
> //First, I would entertain the idea of changing the triage protocol for biologics. In Prague, we have revised our triage procedure. I don't want to sound elitist but would it be worth considering using the Prague triage as a model for other Foundation sites? You can't deny you cary weight up there with the others Sasha. Even if it's not our model that is used, something should be done.//
> //Second, is it feasible to allocate resources for a more __private__ containment facility? For the safety of the good residents of Prague, of course. Tฤchonรญn has only 618 residents. There's already a BSL-4 lab located there, the Centrum biologickรฉ ochrany.[[footnote]]Czech for "Biological Defense Center."[[/footnote]] Building under the guise of a related investment would draw __little__ attention.//
> //Lastly, I want to inquire about the N. anomalum class. Yes, I know that if the containment procedures are followed, it is quite safe. My feeling is that, if upgraded to eculid, we would have a more favorable setting for further weapon research. Having "eculid" on test application could help us bypass the more __annoying__ restrictions.//
> //I look forward to your visit to Prague Sasha. I know it's to be purely business. We do have much business to discuss but Prague is a fun city. I mean, we will enjoy the luxuries of the city."//
> //Your friend, Arpad//
> **Addendum:** //Weaponizing N. anomalum is a viable idea (Operation Ophiocordyceps), but Ms Samantha Power, Site 863, needs to be kept close to the evolution of Operation Ophiocordyceps. Actions recently taken by [EXPUNGED] are concerning. Due to said actions, funding for Operation Ophiocordyceps will be cited under paragraph 4.1 of the Site Protection Act, Annex 13. - Alexandr █████, Operations Director, Site 204.//
**Site 863 "Zadrลพovรกnรญ" Unit's (PZU) Preliminary NBC Incident Report Sverdlovsk**
> **PZU ID**: SHS204863
>
> **Occurrence Location**: Site 863, Triage Biologic S2
>
> **Occurrence Date**: [DATA EXPUNGED]
>
> **Occurrence Type**: Human Error/Aerosol Dissemination-Filter Compromise
>
> **Class of Anomalous**: Safe
>
> **Registration of the Anomalous**: SCP-4x
>
> **Containment Protocol as of Incident**: Triage for Safe Biologic/NATO Standard Biosafety Level-2
>
> **Most Critical Injury**: Fatality
>
> **Nearest City**: Prague
>
> **Narrative**: On [DATA EXPUNGED], at 1100h, ███ ███████ temporarily turned off ventilation for N. anomalum. He then preceded to remove a clogged containment filter. He marked his actions in the hardcopy logbook, but did not enter his actions in the digital log.
>
> **1130h**: A coworker, █████ █████, noticed the ventilation was off. He checked the digital log and did not find anything unusual. He then turned ventilation back on.
>
> **1201h**: The researcher on call, ████ ██████, noticed the filters were missing and contacted PZU NBC.[[footnote]]NBC stands for Nuclear, Biological, Chemical.[[/footnote]]
>
> **1202h**: PZU issued a complete quarantine for Triage Biologic S2.
>
> **1204h**: PZU NBC prepares the "Utracenรญ stรกda" protocol.[[footnote]]Utracenรญ stรกda is Czech for "Culling the flock."[[/footnote]]
>
> **1208h**: 3-Methylfentanyl is directed throughout the ventilation system of Triage Biologic S2 at a rate of 1100ppm per minute.
>
> **1221h**: Remote heart rate monitoring confirms that all ███ personnel have expired.
>
> **1230h**: Hydrogen peroxide is sprayed remotely throughout Triage Biologic S2.
>
> **1800h**: PZU NBC teams enter Triage Biologic S2 and spray a mix of formaldehyde and formic acid.
>
> **36 hours after initial Breach**: The acute phase of Incident //Sverdlovsk// is considered over.
>
> **Please Sign for Authentication**: //Generรกlporuฤรญk Arpad Miklos//
__**Project Ophiocordyceps, Operation Carpenter Ant-[REDACTED]**__[[footnote]]This test does not appear in the official Foundation archives. Reasons for that are unknown at this time.[[/footnote]]
> **Subject(s):** 23 randomly chosen Class-D personnel. Each subject was given a locater so their location could be pinpointed within "Bio Valley."[[footnote]]The "Bio Valley" is a +2 and -2 story building located in the Vysoฤina Region, Czech Republic. It was designed based on the standard facilities used by "The Chaos Insurgency." "Bio Valley" is only used in biological weapon testing.[[/footnote]]
> **Procedure:** The subjects were placed in "Bio Valley." They were given 20 minutes to spread throughout the "Bio Valley" complex. The complex was prepared akin to a normal high security building. After 20 minutes, a non-explosive munition, designed for to disperse //N. anomalum//, was fired at a predesignated area.
> **Results:** +1h: Non-lethal writhing behavior in all subjects. All 23 subjects displayed rhythmic chorea. +2h: Intense screaming is noted in 12 subjects. Muscle spasm in all 23 subjects, seem to snap long bones in the arms and legs. (Confirm in autopsy.) White fruiting bodies are noted by the mouth and chin in all subjects. +2.5h: Three (3) subjects have expired. The remaining show intense muscle contractions. Five (5) are trying to crawl, seemingly with intent. +3h: All 23 subjects have expired.
> **Analysis:** In the terms of the question: //Could we weaponizing N. anomalum?// The analysis shows high infectivity, 100% mortally, and very easy dispersing. The outlook on a weaponized strain of //N. anomalum// is positive. Further research is needed to show how long spores remain infective.
[[include component:image-block name=Lbgwwcf-1.jpg|caption=Victim of Biohazard Incident //Sverdlovsk.// [[footnote]]See //Preliminary NBC Incident Report Sverdlovsk,// named after the //1979 Sverdlovsk anthrax leak//[[/footnote]]]]
**Item #**: SCP-4x
**Object Class**: --Safe-- //Pending. -Alexandr █████, Operations Director, Site 204//
**Special Containment Procedures**:
When dealing with //Neurophyton anomalum// the use of a positive pressure personnel suit, with a segregated air supply is mandatory. The entrance and exit of the //N. anomalum// containment lab contains multiple showers, a vacuum room, and an ultraviolet light room to destroy all traces of biological hazard. Multiple airlocks are to be employed and are electronically secured to prevent both doors from opening at the same time. All air and water service going to and coming from the //N. anomalum// containment lab will undergo similar decontamination procedures to eliminate the possibility of subsequent accidental releases. See //Preliminary NBC Incident Report Sverdlovsk//.
Personnel assigned to //N. anomalum// must have specific training in handling extremely hazardous infectious agents. They are to be supervised by qualified personnel who are trained in mycology, epidemiology, and infectious disease. Access to the //N. anomalum// lab is to be controlled by Dr. Johann Stรธrlid in special cooperation with Generรกlporuฤรญk[[footnote]]Generรกlporuฤรญk is the Czech equivalate to Lieutenant General.[[/footnote]] Miklos.
**Description**:
//Neurophyton anomalum// is an anomalous parasitoid fungi that has both asexual and sexual forms. The sexual form of //N. anomalum// produces a white, "puffball" fruiting body. The fruiting body erupts from the mandible. The fruiting body has not yet appeared naturally and can only be initiated //in vitro.// The specific reasons for that are unknown.
The asexual form appears as a white mold around the oral cavity. The asexual form is more infectious than the sexual form. The only samples of N. anomalum at Site 863 are in asexual forms.
Gyromitrin, found in //N. anomalum//, is partly converted into the hydrazone monomethylhydrazine (MMH), within the body. MMH is useful as a rocket propellent. MMH is in stage III testing for use as a propellent. Also found in //N. anomalum//, is an antagonist of dystrophin, known as MG-125. MG-125 is a structural analog of the synthetic dystrophin antagonist, MG-132. MG-125's actions on dystrophin are likely the cause of the severe muscle spasms, and other myopathies, seen in some //N. anomalum// infections
Results of genetic testing shows the four (4) main nucleobases but also found purine paired with inosine.
The course of any infection with //N. anomalum// seems to be based on the genetics or the metabolism of the host. The reasons for that are unknown at this time. But all infections show the following: Spasms (strong enough to break bone), white mold around the mouth, the anterior cingulate cortex becomes partially necrotic, the substantia gelatinosa becomes erratic and begins to send signals to the substantia nigra, gross atrophy of the skeletal muscles, movement becomes twitchy, sharp, quick, with pauses, and massive amounts of histamine are released.
The lifecycle of //N. anomalum// is extremely complex. The lifecycle and infection course are related. //Dr. Wolf Lorenz//, //Dr. Johann Stรธrlid// and their respective teams are undertaking a project to map out the known life cycles.
Infection in a genetically healthy human is termed the //Kadera Cycle.//[[footnote]]It is named after mycologist, David Kadera.[[/footnote]]
__**Test Cycle 204863/Kadera Cycle- [REDACTED]**__
> **Subject:** D-8190 (Male, 25)
> **Procedure:** Spores of //N. anomalum// were delivered via intrathecal pump to minimize non-neurological affects.
> **Results:** Subject complained that his skin felt painfully cold. He said he had no urge to get away from it. This is the hallmark of the //N. anomalum// affect on the brain. He then began have muscle contractions that broke both femurs. These injuries were painful for approximately 30mins. Physical, chorea-like movements progressed as followed: Normal movement. The "twitchy, sharp, quick with pauses. Not enough strength to walk. Breathing was normal throughout. He began to self mutilate by pulling out his finger nails. He tried to pull his toe nails out but he was too weak. He preceded to molest his newly injured fingers. When asked why, the subject said, "I need to feel...... Something." The subject expired 4mins minutes later, as noted via remote heart monitoring.
> **Analysis:** Audio log from autopsy: //"One would think a parasite would want to keep its host alive. A parasitoid no doubt, ja? Ms Ursula Clarke's tests have shown that MG-125 inhibits dystrophin. All the dying muscles would send out salts, potassium, and chloride among other proconvulsants. Also damage to the brain would have fed into his unusual movements. It seems that the damage to the brain is goal driven. Decreasing pain and pleasure. Going into self mutilations. If we find spores in the blood left by the subject, I would conclude that the neurological changes are to help the N. anomalum fitness in the wild; to help spread it via blood. Clever kleiner Bastard..." -Dr. Wolf Lorenz.//
Infection in an individual with increased expression of PrPC will appear as severe atrophy of the thalamus. This cycle is termed //Nyx Cycle//.[[footnote]]Named after //Nyx//, the Greek goddess of the night.[[/footnote]] Sleep is unatainable after 3hrs. The subject will have increase paranoia, phobias, and complete insomnia. The one subject tested died after 6 months of complete sleeplessness.
An infection in a subject with low purine metabolism will result in a intense episode of psychosis, self mutilations, and delusions of grandeur. This cycle is know as the //9H-purine Cycle//.[[footnote]]Researchers are divided between if they were actually delusions or something related to the sapience of //N. anomalum// . Until evidence is found, they were delusions.[[/footnote]]
**Known cycles of //N. anomalum//:**
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[[>image Lifecycle_of_Pfiesteria.jpg size="medium"]]
A simplified diagram of the known cycles of //N. anomalum//. This report will not go into such detail.
[[/collapsible]]
**Test Deus Ex:**
[[collapsible show="+ Expand." hide="- Hide"]]
> **Subject:** D-8204 **Affliction:** Psychopathy **Specific Symptoms:** [REDACTED].[[footnote]]Information will be released in 90 days or until all affected property has been thoroughly bleached and the carpets replaced.[[/footnote]]
> **Subject:** D-8482 **Affliction:** Peptic Ulcers **Specific Symptoms:** D-8482 began to projectile vomit. D-8482 would keep eye contact until she felt like she could hit another person with her vomitus. Analysis of the vomitus did show viable spores.
> **Subject:** D-8778 **Affliction:** Huntington's Disease, 40 CAG repeat **Specific Symptoms:** D-8778 showed a 2,000x increase of glutamine within the central nervous system. Spasms are more violent per usual infection. Autopsy of D-8778's brain was not possible due to severe excitotoxicity, very few neurons were still intact.
[[/collapsible]]
**Intercepted email to Generรกlporuฤรญk Arpad Miklos from Alexandr █████, Operations Director, Site 204**
[[footnote]] Classified on the orders of ████ █████. This letter is to be taken as personal communication.[[/footnote]]
> //"My closest friend, Arpad, I have to redeem a favor. I was able to give you unprecedented access to Neurophyton anomalum, I now need directed research to see the weaponization potential of N. anomalum. Wise as you are, you may have realized that my people and I are on the brink of war. Let me be clear, N. anomalum is a last resort option. Ever since 9M-MRD was shot down, war is on the horizon. We are sliding back to a time where we were not viewed so great. To secure the future of the Foundation in Eastern Europe, we must glaze over a few rules and morals. I have the highest faith in you friend."
> Sasha//
**Proposal by Generรกlporuฤรญk Miklos to Alexandr █████, Operations Director, Site 204**
[[footnote]]This letter is to be taken as personal communication.[[/footnote]]
> //"Sasha! How is the life of 6,000 EUR suits? Nice, I'm sure.//
> //Let me start off by expressing my gratitude for allowing my PZU and I access to samples of N. anomalum for research on its weaponization potential. I will be sending our newest research on the idea of weaponization soon.[[footnote]]See //Operation Ophiocordyceps: Project Carpenter Ant//.[[/footnote]] But I do have a few concerns regarding containment.//
> //First, I would entertain the idea of changing the triage protocol for biologics. In Prague, we have revised our triage procedure. I don't want to sound elitist but would it be worth considering using the Prague triage as a model for other Foundation sites? You can't deny you cary weight up there with the others Sasha. Even if it's not our model that is used, something should be done.//
> //Second, is it feasible to allocate resources for a more __private__ containment facility? For the safety of the good residents of Prague, of course. Tฤchonรญn has only 618 residents. There's already a BSL-4 lab located there, the Centrum biologickรฉ ochrany.[[footnote]]Czech for "Biological Defense Center."[[/footnote]] Building under the guise of a related investment would draw __little__ attention.//
> //Lastly, I want to inquire about the N. anomalum class. Yes, I know that if the containment procedures are followed, it is quite safe. My feeling is that, if upgraded to eculid, we would have a more favorable setting for further weapon research. Having "eculid" on test application could help us bypass the more __annoying__ restrictions.//
> //I look forward to your visit to Prague Sasha. I know it's to be purely business. We do have much business to discuss but Prague is a fun city. I mean, we will enjoy the luxuries of the city."//
> //Your friend, Arpad//
> **Addendum:** //Weaponizing N. anomalum is a viable idea (Operation Ophiocordyceps), but Ms Samantha Power, Site 863, needs to be kept close to the evolution of Operation Ophiocordyceps. Actions recently taken by [EXPUNGED] are concerning. Due to said actions, funding for Operation Ophiocordyceps will be cited under paragraph 4.1 of the Site Protection Act, Annex 13. - Alexandr █████, Operations Director, Site 204.//
**Site 863 "Zadrลพovรกnรญ" Unit's (PZU) Preliminary NBC Incident Report Sverdlovsk**
> **PZU ID**: SHS204863
>
> **Occurrence Location**: Site 863, Triage Biologic S2
>
> **Occurrence Date**: [DATA EXPUNGED]
>
> **Occurrence Type**: Human Error/Aerosol Dissemination-Filter Compromise
>
> **Class of Anomalous**: Safe
>
> **Registration of the Anomalous**: SCP-4x
>
> **Containment Protocol as of Incident**: Triage for Safe Biologic/NATO Standard Biosafety Level-2
>
> **Most Critical Injury**: Fatality
>
> **Nearest City**: Prague
>
> **Narrative**: On [DATA EXPUNGED], at 1100h, ███ ███████ temporarily turned off ventilation for N. anomalum. He then preceded to remove a clogged containment filter. He marked his actions in the hardcopy logbook, but did not enter his actions in the digital log.
>
> **1130h**: A coworker, █████ █████, noticed the ventilation was off. He checked the digital log and did not find anything unusual. He then turned ventilation back on.
>
> **1201h**: The researcher on call, ████ ██████, noticed the filters were missing and contacted PZU NBC.[[footnote]]NBC stands for Nuclear, Biological, Chemical.[[/footnote]]
>
> **1202h**: PZU issued a complete quarantine for Triage Biologic S2.
>
> **1204h**: PZU NBC prepares the "Utracenรญ stรกda" protocol.[[footnote]]Utracenรญ stรกda is Czech for "Culling the flock."[[/footnote]]
>
> **1208h**: 3-Methylfentanyl is directed throughout the ventilation system of Triage Biologic S2 at a rate of 1100ppm per minute.
>
> **1221h**: Remote heart rate monitoring confirms that all ███ personnel have expired.
>
> **1230h**: Hydrogen peroxide is sprayed remotely throughout Triage Biologic S2.
>
> **1800h**: PZU NBC teams enter Triage Biologic S2 and spray a mix of formaldehyde and formic acid.
>
> **36 hours after initial Breach**: The acute phase of Incident //Sverdlovsk// is considered over.
>
> **Please Sign for Authentication**: //Generรกlporuฤรญk Arpad Miklos//
__**Project Ophiocordyceps, Operation Carpenter Ant-[REDACTED]**__[[footnote]]This test does not appear in the official Foundation archives. Reasons for that are unknown at this time.[[/footnote]]
> **Subject(s):** 23 randomly chosen Class-D personnel. Each subject was given a locater so their location could be pinpointed within "Bio Valley."[[footnote]]The "Bio Valley" is a +2 and -2 story building located in the Vysoฤina Region, Czech Republic. It was designed based on the standard facilities used by "The Chaos Insurgency." "Bio Valley" is only used in biological weapon testing.[[/footnote]]
> **Procedure:** The subjects were placed in "Bio Valley." They were given 20 minutes to spread throughout the "Bio Valley" complex. The complex was prepared akin to a normal high security building. After 20 minutes, a non-explosive munition, designed for to disperse //N. anomalum//, was fired at a predesignated area.
> **Results:** +1h: Non-lethal writhing behavior in all subjects. All 23 subjects displayed rhythmic chorea. +2h: Intense screaming is noted in 12 subjects. Muscle spasm in all 23 subjects, seem to snap long bones in the arms and legs. (Confirm in autopsy.) White fruiting bodies are noted by the mouth and chin in all subjects. +2.5h: Three (3) subjects have expired. The remaining show intense muscle contractions. Five (5) are trying to crawl, seemingly with intent. +3h: All 23 subjects have expired.
> **Analysis:** In the terms of the question: //Could we weaponizing N. anomalum?// The analysis shows high infectivity, 100% mortally, and very easy dispersing. The outlook on a weaponized strain of //N. anomalum// is positive. Further research is needed to show how long spores remain infective.
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