Funny Story! Also a Watch Out/Heads Up

     Okay, so this started about a month ago. A guy using the name "Jason Beckerman" tried to scam me over the internet. So first he emailed me. Said he found me on a dating site. Of course, he made himself into the "perfect lover." He said he was teaching in Barbados and travels all the time. He said he came from money and had a big house out in Cali. Always would say shit like: "I will love you until the end of time. We can travel the world together." Just corny and SUPER religious shit like that. His less than perfect english and his odd hyper-religious fervor told me right away that he was no good. But I decided to bait the hook, see how it would end. I guess cause I'm super bored. So I played along. I was also curious about what he wanted in the end. He did end up using that african prince scheme.

 This is a picture that the guy calling himself "Jason Beckerman" sent to me. I just want to put the picture and his m/o out there so maybe, just maybe someone will see this and not end up scammed.

Russian Neo-Nazis don't Even Deserve old Swine Shit. They're becoming the Death Squads of Russia

     Russian neo-nazi group, Occupy Pedophilia is an anti-LGBT death squad that is passively backed by the government. They abducted LGBT youth and torture them over the course of several days, most often resulting in the death of the victim. They will video tape and take many pictures to document the suffering they inflict on the LGBT youth. They will post it online where it is admired throughout Russia and the surrounding countries.

     I don't share this to cause outrage, anger, sadness, or shock. I share it because it is reality. Also, like myself and many of you, these youths were just being LGBT. The act of being, got them physically, sexually, and psychologically tortured and murdered. I could easily have been a victim if I just simply was born there.

"Krokodil" ™

Moskva's burning.
Government's laughing.
What's that? Crimea's falling.
The ruble has descended, there is no God.
Vodka's failing its job.

Thionyl chloride with codeine gives me a-chlorocodile, then catalyze me, Krokodil.
Oh how clandestine!
My opioid receptors surge to life. They love the agonist.
Fade into blissful relaxation. Euphoric and talkative and relaxed!

I start to smell. My legs swell. I don't feel a thing. I'm sure it's fine.

I see through my leg, how strange.
People think I'm deranged.

"I wasn't happy," I say as the piano wire cuts through my leg.

Touchy Subject -- LSD & Chronic Opioid Resistant Pain.

     Okay, I have to say that I do NOT advocate what I am about to explain.

     Pain is a bitch that holds your entire life on a leash. That pain bitch takes you where ever. For so many, regaining that control just doesn't happen, even with drugs like fentanyl and ketamine don't help. So I wanted to share the effects of LSD on myofascial pain syndrome.

     I can only speak for myself. It was in combo with an SNRI so the effects were most likely reduced. 60 mins. to kick in. Effects lasted 8 hours. A very smooth euphoria. Some what like oxycodone but so much calmer and less intense. Pain was much less for around 5 days after the dose.

     I am just be matter of fact. I do NOT endorse illegal drug use. It is very risky and if you are going to do it, go to a state, city state, or country that allows it.


*Update: After having about 2 hits of pure LSD one recent night, I didn't feel the benefits as much. So I'm guessing it is dose dependent. Also, if used for pain, it is best to take it in the morning to keep a normal sleep schedule.*

Pseudocida homosapiensi™ *Fiction, Test Run*

     Species classification has yield no clues to P. homosapiensi origin. DNA shows several instances of genes that are around at least ~80% to related genes in: Catenaria anguillulae, Wolbachia, Trypanosoma, Treponema pallidum, Toxoplasma gondii, Bdelloidea, Spiroplasma, Temperate Bacteriophage, JC Virus, Borrelia, Acanthocephala, Naegleria fowleri.

     There is a high chance that this organism was man made. Exact reasons relating to how the species can produce such a wide range of signs are lacking. We don't know how it works. Do you know how it works? We don't even think God himself knows how it works!

Symptoms of infection:
 Limbic Encephalitis 
 Vasoconstriction
 Memory Problems
 Fever
 Mydriasis
 Acquired Torticollis
 Nausea
 "Encephalitis lethargica"
 Hypotension
 Headache
 Loss of Impulse Control
 Necrosis due to restricted blood flow
 Priapism (paradoxical due to hypotension)
 Xenomas, mainly around the CNS
 Catatonia (with Hypomanic to Manic features)
 Seizures
 Akathisia
 Blurred vision
 Depersonalization
 Derealisation
 Hypothermia
 Convulsions
 Stiffness
 OCD
 Hypersexuality
 Euphoria
 Newly formed Paraphillias
 Parkinsonism
 Neural Inclusions
 Delirium
 Hallucinations
 Polyphagia
 Hyperosmia
 Suicidal and Homicidal ideation
 Urges to Shout, Throw, Break things, and Harm others
 Cravings for Opioids
 Meningoencephalitis
 Hypoalgesia progressing to complete endogenous induced Analgesia
 Emotional Lability
 Ataxia
 Transient Autophagia
 Torpor
 Acquired Antisocial Behaviors
 Erotomania
 Loss of Morals
 Oneirophrenia
 Pica
 Parasomnia
 Ego Death
 Nystagmus
 Hypoesthesia progressing to Anaphia
 Cyanosis
 Desquamation
 Cytokine Storm
 Anti-NMDA Receptor Encephalitis
 Witzelsucht

Just Wanted to Rub Out a Quick Idea!

     Oh shirtless Putin the Hunter (and fisher, and pilot, and dictator, and horseback rider, and savior of the Siberian Tiger), you can suck my fuckin' dick and like it! Ooh I hate your ass.

     If he ever needs a "son" on a hunting trip, I'm right here you nenavistnym svoloch'.

Trigger Points--Finally!

     I finally got around 6-10 trigger point injections. I got poked many times so it's sore but the actually chronic pain is around 90% less.

     I still have post-withdrawal ahedonia so it's hard to wrap my head around the world that is now open to me. Yeah, I'm scared. Like when you were little and were sick from school for a week or so and you had nerves in your stomach from being gone for that long.

     I'll be 19 on 1-25-2014. I'm still in high school, I am not ashamed but being frozen in life takes a toll. The cost of the years of untreated pain has yet to be known but I have "Stars" by t.A.T.u playing so I have hope.